ari ahad yg sepi..
tggl aku seorg diri,
di opis ini,
aku sudah kebekuan la ni..

cam semlm arini lmbt lg..
bukan pasal poye2 di waktu pg, tp mateku otomatik mmg cmni bile weekend.
oggy pun xsempt tgk arini..
gile sangap punye ngantuk..

wargh, kazen ku ngn famili die da selamat sampai kampung kt sane..
bestnye, gwe ntah tahun bile la nk jejak kaki kesane..
mesti best dapat hirup udare segar di luar kuala lumpur...

lambtnye bulan 5, nak cuti...
stress n headache ni...
nk rendam kaki kt air laut...

the stori is....................

semalam gwe berpoye2...keekekkkee

petang jumpe mami jem, siap banje dozen donuts kt j.co..

tq mami, lap uuu...sian pakcik kamen kene tipu...kakakaka

nakal kan pamili ni???ikikikik

pastu teman mami crk baju die, then balik opis..

dlm perjalanan si tonggek msg.. nk jumpe..so ckp ngn die, ko nk dtg, dtg je la..

pastu die marah, soh cakap lembut2 ngn die...
hoh..

gwe maki blk la... nk lembut mane lg.. klu tul ko syg aku, da lame ko crk..bukan arini..

senyap trus..
last minutes huruhare ajak karaok..layan la..pastu nmpk raja sengal online SM, ingt nk pot minum jer, upenye die pun nk lepas gian gak...layannnn..
heret die skali, pastu die kenal la si lomang tu...hoh, kecik tul dunie ni..
huruhare ngn kak isis pun de..

pastu doc sampai ngn laki angkt gwe, sapo laie klu bukan manjo...hoh, kato xmo dtg..kamben..
tggu punye tggu, kul 12 gak baru masuk..
so dorg ni pun lenjan la..3 jam uponyer, kate 2 jam..

gile tul mlm td..tapi best gile.......

mmg best ar..cian kak isis jd mangse dorang..

cam2 aksi gak gwe rakamkan, tp muke gwe kurg la menyelit....

so blk sampai umah kul 4, xbleh tido trus..wt situp lu...baru bleh..
yeah, on diet masih berjalan..dinner ngn donut jer semlm..kekekek

pg ni gi keje lambt...patut masuk kul 10, gwe gerak kul 10.30..salah tgk jam..
cian jam,ko yg dipersalahkan..

wat the hell?

org xsuke,,xkn aku nk terhegeh2 lagi..

hoh, kontrolbesi x ni??

pedulik la..

ape lah dorang ni, pemikiran cam orang kampung..

keje bandar..tapi memang korang dari kampung..open lah sikit ur mind tu..

pasal campur dengan seseorang ngn korang xsuke, trus lupe kawan yang lame..

sungguh dahsyat kuasemu, menarik sume perhatian padamu..

tapi aku pun xeran lah ngn korang, sorang blah, seribu lagi kawan aku ade..

idop ni pun x bergantung kt korang..

idop la dalam kroni korang tu..sampai mampus.


lgpun aku xde utang ngn sesape, ok lah tu..orang baik aku baik..

tapi skali korang campak aku, u will never seen me..

sikit xeran, dengan lifestyle korang tu, u can get lost, brambus.......

ps: aku marah kt org berpolitik ni..

harini

bohsan la arini..
ngn jem gilenye..
aduh, gwe lmbt 3 minit..

nk wt keje ar, asik ngular je..
sok jumaat..sabtu ahad keje..ala..lambt this week.....

menghitung ari,
detik demi detik,
bile lah aku nk dpt gaji,
xtau lah sapelah aku nk petik.....

arini 10hb...
yihaa..16hr lg new salary.........
gaji gwe da naik,sikit tp mainten....
apsal la basic gwe rendah......

gile punye karaok

hahaahahhahaha
hoh...
gwe da la paling dekat opis,tp lambt gak sampai...kekekekek
biaselah, makeup la dulu..hoh, makeup ker??

sempt menggedik ngn denoso, dpt la parking free kt pavilion tu...hahahhahah
dr kul 8.30 sampai kul 1 lebih kt dlm tu, memang dorg ni gile mic tul la..
gwe jer duk diam2...
gedik pun sikit jer, kene la cover, laki angkt ade..kakakka
xkose mak nak cover2..
biase lah, sesi di buli memang ade..gwe kan adik yg plg kecik skali..

sampai2 jer trus mkn, gile lapo semlm..
terjejas diet mak mlm td..

disebabkan bilik tu keciklah sangat, kitorg sume tpakse berhimpit2...
nasib gwe diapit, xde sejuk sgt..
tp merembes tu ade la..gwe kan jande gersang...kakakakaka

n arini gile ngantuk.........bile nk kul 6 ni???
i'm sleepy..

gile ker?

hoh, mencik tul gwe tgk entri sedih2 ni..
x mraban langsung.
its not me..
dey macha..
kasik angkat itu kelusi..
ape plak macha ni wt kt sini..

arini bos gwe pakse mkn roti jale ngn die..
pastu gwe mkn buah..
on diet tu...kekekkkkekek
klu xkurus gak,xtau la...
kompom den poie jual lomak ni kt kodai sup...kkakakaakak

bile nk kaye ni?
bulan ni sangap sikit lap..hoh..mencik tul..
da la plg bz, byk xtvt..

ala, lupe nk ckp ngn ila, bulan 6 kite gi bleh x link??
bulan 5 ni, mak nk gi langkawi, ikut lud, bapak ayam gwe tu..
nk gi menjual..kakkakaka
xlar, nk gi kenduri skandal gelap die..

mesti best ni jumpe maulud shahrir yg gilo ni..
nasibla ko kurus cam org lidi, xselere gwe nk ngorat...kakakakak

yeah, lambtnye bulan 4 ni nk abih..
awal tahun ni x memberangsangkan la kewangan gwe..
xcukup jer..kikiikk
tggu kutu ngn bonus.....

kutu kompom gwe dpt..
bonus xtau,xde crite lgsg dr HR..
lembap seh dorg ni.......
xtau ke aku da tahap jehan meskin ni??

running

nape nak sensitip sgt?

nape nk pikir pe org kate?

dorg bg kite mkn ker?

i need to running from this things for this moments........

why happen this time, when peak time at convex, n i can't go far away from here.....

i need to take rest.

manelah aku bleh lari ni???


Run

Running all the time

Running to the future

With you right by my side

Me

I'm the one you chose

Out of all the people

You wanted me the most

I'm so sorry that i'm falling

Help me up lets keep on running

Don't let me fall out of love



Chorus:

Running, running

As fast as we can

I really hope you make it

(do you think we'll make it?)




We're running

Keep holding my hand

It's so we don't get separated

Be

Be the one i need

Be the one i trust most

Don't stop inspiring me

Sometimes it's hard to keep on running

We work so much to keep it going

Don't make me want to give up

mesej from n to amat

dialogue with amat
from phonecall yg die call pg td, i said blk kul 12 mlm pun die nk jumpe gak..ok, ko crk la aku kt mane, ko tau umah akukn..ok kite tgk je la.

ptg tu, mesej masuk

akubencikau: lik kul bape? abg ot

akubencikau: sok ar jumpe yg..nk demam la.xsdp bdn..(normal reason if don't want c me)

from me: xyah jumpe trus ar..sebulan ko xyah carik aku lg senang

akubencikau: ko nk aku wt pe lg?

from me: ask urself? klu cmni ko becinte ngn aku, sampai mati aku xkawen ngn ko..skit pun ko xde inisiatif nk crk aku..apsal xcukup setahun je br crk..pastu ko ingt senang, mintk maap aku da bleh cair..skali 2 boleh, tp ni bp ratus kali ko wt..bkn sikit la aku trase ngn ko,pastu kompom ko kate aku ego.tp ko de piki pe ko da wat aku trase?xpenah ko nk brubah.aku letih sgt.bohsan tau nk idup cmni.

from me lg: aku syg gile kt ko & arap ko jage aku sampai akhir hayat..aku bukan malaikat ntuk saba ngn orang yg xpenah hargai aku sbg manusia..wtpe aku nk truskan hubungan klu itu sekse idop sendiri..byk sgt aku jage ati org, tapi ati sendiri nobody care..for me, klu ko xnk aku,xpaham kehendak, ikut care aku, u cant let me go if u want..aku xnk ko truskan hubugan ni klu ko da rase tpakse..aku da biase di tinggalkan..

xpueh lg..
from me again: its in ur hand to make decision., klu rase ko xtahan ngn aku,aku seda aku ni sape..ko bgtau jer.tp klu ko nak aku, tolong ubah diri ko tu..bukan ntuk aku, tp ntuk ko,mase depan ko. aku nak laki bukan 24/7 ngn aku, tp bile aku perlukan die sgt2, die berade disisi aku. n klu rase hubungan ni akan diteruskan, give me time la..aku da tawar ati sgt ni..bukn pasal org lain, tp pasal ko..ask urself what u've done

no reply from him..padam da ke?? is this the man i want share my life forever?hoh,damn..

puas..kompom bil ntah bape juta this month..kakakka

n now time to mad to my kazen cuz introduce amat to me...kakakakkaka
its always happen when fight happen..kakakaka
nnt masuk sm,nk bukak thread, kenapakah?
now i enjoy my life..nothing to think.nobody to ask..
but i will miss my time with him..
he's good man forever i know..
n still love him..hoh..omg...
susah tul nk lupekan die, after a year..

hoh

si tonggek call arini..
kene maki ar die, pe lagi..kakakakkak
padan muke ko..

hoh..tido

hoh, satu ari gwe tido..
dr kul 5 pg, 6hb sampai 6 pg, 7 hb...kkakakaakak
nasib la sape call tu, memang mamai2 ler gwe jwb..
hoh, lapa.............xmkn lgsg semlm..........
arini tgk pc, jadi blur jap...
gile awal arini...

yeah,siap gak kojo den

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
settle da keje..
weekly report ntuk 6 minggu...hoh..
gile byk pending..
ot pun settle..
minutes meeting je tinggal nk finalised..
i hate write minutes meeting..hoh..bosan gile...
keje yg paling gwe mencik...

abih je settle sume keje, tepon kengkawan la td..kakakakaka
aduh, cam2 cite kuar..
hapeening tul cite ngn dorg ni..
ish, bulan 5 ni byk plak org ajak jalan..
cam bz je..tp bleh ke bos gwe bg cuti ni??
bulan depan gwe plan baik2 punye la...

otak da tepu duk depan pc dr 9 pg sampai 9 mlm..nk chiao la...
chawcincau....

lepak2 ngn kengkawan

ngantuknyer arini...nak tidoooooooo....hoh..

semlm, seperti yg dijanjikan dgn huruhare n geng gotah, gerak la 6 suku dr opis ke pelita..
singgah cimb jap..
gwe sampai je. flo ngn dh da tunggu, so lepak ngn dorg, gigs plak sampai..
try call huruhare xdpt..
hoh, hampehgas..
gwe da panas ni tggu org..

time nk gerak jer die sampai, siot tul..
lembap pastu wat muke xbersalah..

lepak2 punye lepak, kutuk punye kutuk, suh dorg anta kt parking, maleh nk mnapak,
call gabaz, die kt boling, 2 org jer ngn joker..
cian la plak, da janji, so gi la boling..
hoh, ingt nk tgk jer,tp cam gian..main la ngn baju kurung..kekekkekek
byk kali gak nk tergolek..
tp cover kayu pu ye pasal..
main for fun la..
3 frame gak tibai, dorang da 4 frame..
da abih, balik, tido..yeah...

arini keje maleh jer..
apo la nk jd ni???

mesej ngn epat anak pakcik bakar

rina : pat. ko idop lg x? apsal kol ko aritu xdpt? aku nk gitau, aku sakit pewut ni.

epat: alamak ko fon lambt sgt.. aku da mati aritu..serius ke skt ko, kt wad ke ni??

rina: cilake ko.. da 2 kali aku gi toilet.tp xbleh kuar.cinabeng tul..weh kuar cepat.

epat: bodo ni sembelit je rpnye.. ingt sakit siyes..

ni la kawan paling sengal..
da la xhemsem, muke cam bapak gajah, tp ur the best frenz i have la pat..ai lap u..

besday gwe pun die lmbt wish..
siap ckp org kt kedai mkn tu cite pasal besday gwe..

but funny memories i still remember is...:-
time studi kitorg slalu la sgt outing ke bando..JB..
biase la, mlm minggu jer roadblok byk..
sekali tu lalu kt stulang laut, polis depan da bagi jalan, tibe2 polis blakang tahan..
mintak ic epat...kakakkaka
padan muke ko lepat..
muke cam ketue lanun, mane polis xtpanas tgk..kakakakak

bile la nk jumpo dak bulat ni..skang die slamat da blaja kt uitm..
anak mak ni......
tapi die paling best, biase la dak hotel katering atau hotcat atau kucing panas ni, kenelah pandai masak..
die wat kueh care ntuk gwe..huh, mabeles seh..
bile la ko nk wt lagi ntuk aku, pat gilo...

harini

hoh..
hangin ngn bos

ceh, marah tul xde la..
pastu ok da ngn die..
siap guwau2 manje..
kalut sgt..

yg lain gwe x heran sgt..

aslong die nmpk muncung gwe sedepa punye panjang, die xbrani nk kaco...kakakkaak
rasakan kuasa,
tamparan wanita...

siap tanya ngn tonggek yg xtahan tu...
bos yang paling bizi bodi..
da la xhemsem, pastu suh opis ni beku2..
weh, gwe da beku ni..
eh, jap, nak gi toilet..

arini gwe agak menggelupur sikit pasal sakit perut..
benci la perut ni..
jgn la ari jumaat, tengah drive plak tu..

If i Let You Go

Day after day

Time passed away

N' I just can't get you off my mind

Nobody knows, I hide it inside

I keep on searching but I can't find

The courage to show to letting you know

I've never felt so much love before

And once again I'm thinking about

Taking the easy way out

Chorus:

But if I let you go I will never know

What my life would be holding you close to me

Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

How will I know

If I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say

Why can't this feeling just fade away

There's no one like you

You speak to my heart

It's such a shame

we're worlds apart


I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose

But sooner or later I gotta choose


And once again I'm thinking about

Taking the easy way out

Chorus

And once again I'm thinking about

Taking the easy way out

this first english song i memorize when i'm in 13 yrs old.
i attend external english class, that time we need to sing english song..
when sing back, miss my memories at the class...
that time i only sing, hindustan song..kkaakkakaka
since from that, i don't like hindustan anymore..

yeah new title, tgk atas tu...

nampak x, nampak x??
first step to new world...kakakkaak


trime kasih ahmad faizal..
9 ari ko senyap..
lantak ko la nak buat ape..
yang penting jgn kaco mak, ok.
mak nk menjual, no body care..
hoh, jual?
jual ape?kakakaaakk

sjak move back to gombak ni, bAdan ni da naik gatal2 balik, apo komondo ni??
mencik tgk kaki den, da bercorak2, berbintat...
gatal yg sangat2...hoh..
da tukar sabun protex ngn mandi ngn dettol pun xmo ilang..
gatal la tgn ni..xtau la nk wtpe lg ni.nyamuk ni xbleh blah la..kaco jer..

klu puji diri sendiri bleh x?
hoh...yeahhhhhh....perut da xde..i mean lebihan2 lomak den da mkn kurang...
yeah..idop gombakkkkkkkk...
mintk2 la pasni xberhenti la buat...
n i just know for somewhere, situp ni xbleh berenti buat..
klu berenti buat, lagi teruk la..patutla mak gebuss sgt...kakakakaka

nnt la ade sonang den tepek perut den yg da kempis ea...kekeekek

arini cabut awal..
nk wat keje xde mood..
paradigm slow gile..
kampeni xbaya license ape ntah..
bosan, nk wt keje pun semangat da hilang...
so sebelum hijau bumi tuhan tenggelam dikala malam, gwe pun cabut lari la dgn semangat perjuangan harmoni..
ape nak dikate, balik laa...
balik mkn, pas mkn tengok bella pun boleh tertido..hoh, gile ngantuk ni..
ni dah mandi, pakai suar pendek ngn tube, sedia ntuk landing..yihaaaa...aribaaaa.....
hoh, jgn lupe, sit up sebyk 50 kali sblum tido..

adekah?adekah?

hohh...adekah aku bakal menjadi jande lg...
kali ni nk wtpe?
sedih?
nangis?
ketawe?
senyum jer kot..

napo susah bona org nk lekat ngn den....??

ala, apo den nk inform pamili den..
xde jodoh nek..
xde jodoh da tuk, nk wtcane??
klu ngn ibu, lg panjang lebar..
da clash da?pasnih crk yg hemsem ngn kaye..mate duitan punye org tue..nyampah gwe..
baik buruk mak den..tp dieni nk jual anak ker?
xpaham la...nnt mesti tye lg, abih xde la jumpe amat lg,xtepon..hah, fak...

lari gwe punye plan..xtau la wat my feel now..
nk kate hepi ade, rase kosong, keilangan pun ade..
life must goes on..nk bwk kmane..??
xde da tmpt la gwe nk menggedik2 nk manje yg xboleh wt ngn pamili ngn kengkwn..
i admitt miss him so much..
but wat for give him a chance but he never try to change, end of story its become my fault..i'm to ego..hoh..aku plak salah..

i hate u amat do this to me..
make me not in this world...
i can't give 100% attention for work..
should go far away n away...

luckily i got lucky draw vacation voucher 1k..dlm mesia pun dlm mesia la...

why my love story will end by sad stori.. when can i get hepi ending love stori?
anyone pls give me men who can take care of me...
i don't need him 24/7 with me, i need him when i need him..could u???


p/s, i write this with one hand...kikiki
sebelah lg thn empangan air mate pecah....klakar je nak nangih..geli gwe...

annual dinner 31 n 1 april, the tired day

7days..
tq amat..

gile penat..sminggu ni rajin wat sit up...
jgn terkejut pasni mak xde perut lg..tgh pektis lg,biase la take time..
hoh, ni br tul2 on diet..makan pun xde serere..ok la..go on...
pasang badan gitu..kot2 de bad news da standby la...kakakaak

mlm semlm dinner..
lege sume da abih...
yeah, facilities dpt 1st runner kire no 2 laaa...yip yip hooraeyyyyyy....
akhirnye operation kalah kepade facilities gakk..dpt 1500..
better then previous2 year...
idea all from me, kmudian cik din crk idea konsep n fairuz help we a lot...
jgn ober blagak lagi ok...
trus diam setan2 tu...kakkakaak

handle rehearsal sorg mmg best..mak gile kose..
sume kene halau ngn gwe, ngn bos2 pun kene..
bile lg dpt chance cmni...kakkaaakk

me on that night..


n arini juz confirm my lucky draw, dpt voucher vacation 1k..hoh,nk pi mana ni?????
sape la nk jd ayam den ni..kakakaakk

arini keje gile lemau....blakon pun ye gak...kikiki..kul 5 cabut..hoh, da la nk tido..

lupe, kesinambungan i'm fall in love

i'm fall in love with dark choclate..hoh..sedap ar..
xmanis..

de org conpius la

hoh..de org konpius ni..kekekekekke
7 ari aku jd jande ni..bahgie tul idop...
xmo aku crk die..let him to decide..leave me or not..